Why were his issues always on the back burner?
What had he done to be placed in the last spot of every indice of success?
He was the eldest child, yet his younger ones graduated from college before him.
They started working before him, got married before him.
They were achieving great feats before him
He was hard working, diligent, and responsible.
He didn’t have to sacrifice his education for their sake.
His parents were very blessed.
How he found himself at the bottom of the pecking order was mysterious.
Aren’t first borns supposed to be blessed? lead the way and show example?!
Here he was light years behind every one else.
Whenever he strived to tear the veil of redundancy, he found himself flat on his back.
He couldn’t even remember anymore his days of joy.
It was as if the heavens and the earth were colluding against him.
God! Where lies your face?
He had five younger ones
Two male and three female.
They had all married! Had goods job and settled down to life.
He was still single and searching at 37!
He was a graduate, had a job (Not a good one but a job)
He was handsome, a god fearing man and yet…
He needed a break!
The break didn’t come.
His girlfriend of many years left him out of the blues, yet he didn’t even offend her, they didn’t have any quarrel.
One day they were together planning a wedding, the next she was gone!
Hooked up with another guy.
The constant salary he had been earning at his place of work became staggered. Economic reasons and all.
Was he not supposed to be above only and not beneath?
Well, the words are good but in reality he was beneath the beneath.
He got tired
What is in this life?
“I will end it all, kill myself” He thought
He started making plans, his exit had to be as painless as possible and as deliberate as they came.
He had served God diligently and God had failed him.
If he had to go to hell, so be it!
He was already in hell as things stood!
He decided he would do it on a Sunday
He would go to church, dance and worship and end it with a bang.
He got to church.
Service was as usual.
Immediately after service,
Someone came to him and said “The Holy Spirit said I should tell you”
Your season of joy begins today!
He said amen.
The person laughed!
He started laughing!
What a ridiculous prophecy?
Why didn’t God say “Don’t kill yourself”
Was He not supposed to see and know all things?
Psychological prophecy! Nonsense!
If there is one thing he would achieve without fail, it would be his suicide.
He went to the ATM
Withdrew his all he had
Went to a restaurant, spent all the money on his last supper.
He took out the rope and the 10 bottles of Codeine.
He planned to numb himself with the drug, and then hang himself
He put up the rope!
Drank the 10 codeine bottles within ten minutes.
He waited for the drugs to kick in.
He kept his eyes on the rope.
Within minutes he was adrift.
He climbed the chair,
put his neck on the rope, tied the noose properly.
Pushed the chair!
Death wasn’t as painless as he had expected. He began to thrash about desperately, grunting desperately!
The knocker looked in through the window, raised an alarm!!
His door was broken.
He was already light headed.
They rescued him!
When he came to, he saw a crowd looking at him pitiably.
Why would he resort to such a foolish act?! They seemed to be asking.
He was taken to the hospital.
The following day, the knocker came around.
Knocker: Hi, I came to your house yesterday, I was the one who found you.
He said nothing! Should he be grateful?
The Knocker: Our Company needs a metrological engineer desperately. We are just starting off and you were recommended to us by an online job hunting platform. I came to deliver your letter of employment. Are you interested?
He was shocked!
He: Can I see the letter?
He was given the letter, he read it. He became well!
He resumed two weeks later. (2012)
The company specializes in fabricating oil and gas, and equipment manufacturing.
Within a few months, his story had changed
He was indeed remembered!!!!
PS: The man is now happily married with three children.
The days of shame had been quickly forgotten
He lives in affluence and plenty.
He runs a suicide prevention NGO
“Don’t give up, don’t end it! Remember that a living dog is better than a dead lion! Talk to someone today! Choose life”
I pray for all those who are depressed and in despair, as you read this, the light of the world floods your darkness with light in Jesus name! Amen!!!