The Perils of Juggling

The Perils of Juggling

After sleeping with many people, 
something happens to you as a person. 
Something happens to your heart 
Something happens to your ability to 
feel right 
Your essence, your core is reprogrammed 
against feeling the right thing 
No matter what your reason for sleeping 
around is
No matter the artificial and material
 benefits you got 
Regardless of whether you are forced or 
do this willingly 
Your soul begins to cry out loud inside 
your core 
You begin to dislike yourself, to develop 
a distaste for life 
You begin to resent the image you see 
in the mirror
You begin to crave a community of your
 kind, to prevent yourself from drowning 
You find yourself unable to keep the 
company of decent friends and people 
You see them as hypocrites whose 
judgment you cannot bear 
You want to mingle with those with 
who you share a common history
You begin to frequent certain places 
Noise becomes your friend 
It helps to silence the outcry of your 
soul temporarily 
You prevent yourself from remembering 
yesterday and the day before that 
The faces, the rooms, the beds, the cars, 
the parties, the body parts 
Too much, too much
Being alone becomes a task
 Sleep without chemical inducement 
becomes a challenge 
Your soul keeps popping up, shouting, 
"I am dying, I am drowning, save me" 
To cope, you compare yourself with 
the wilder ones 
I am not as bad as so and so 
Do you know how many babes he has 
banged?
I am not as bad as such and such, 
she does four guys at once 
Your language changes 
Your perspective narrows 
In the beginning, it might be about 
peer pressure, the need to meet a need, 
excitement, life issues, money, pleasure 
In the end, everything will lose meaning, 
like a bad dream 
Money will no longer satisfy 
Sex will become a  problem 
Your body would have been so tuned to it, 
you will need a fix often to satisfy your 
addiction 
You started with a certain standard, 
"I can only do these sort of guys or ladies" 
It will drop as you fade into oblivion
As you grow older, you will begin to 
yearn to have a life 
The streets are what they are but they 
represent the fringes 
You will desire a level of security 
If not a family, it will be a constant 
source of income that does not dip or 
depend on the pocket or mood of others 
You will want out 
The term "lifestyle choices" begins to 
come into play 
Consequences are a factor 
The married man who has slept with all 
the chicks and hens available loses 
reputation, everyone knows what he 
really is at his core and even though 
they may not say it to his face, he sees it
on their faces 
Children see who their father is and 
shake their heads 
You get judged by all and it tells on you 
You begin to make excuses for your 
life choices, just to be respected or 
even tolerated or even accepted 
A married woman who has slept with 
all the men she can will find herself 
alone even though she may have 
children and money 
When people are talking about her past, 
she would cringe and hush them 
She cannot afford to look that far behind 
Her song will be "I am getting my life 
back on track" 
A reality of shame and excuses 
A change of the or tests 
Once they come into any life, all they 
do is cause death and decay 
There are so many suffering from strange 
afflictions today simply because they 
slept with an agent of darkness 
In some extreme cases, someone 
looking for sex and a good time becomes 
the victim of far worse people ritualists, 
kidnappers, abductors, and drug lords 
That path is so dark that anything can 
pop up at any time 
Stick with a partner, or stick with your 
official partners in case you are a 
polygamist 
The road you drive through often 
during the day is the safest to drive
through at night 
Always remember that a new sex 
partner is a new set of troubles be it 
in the short term or in the long term 
I remember meeting a lady at the 
hospital, her son was ill and the 
doctors wanted to do HIV test for 
him 
She was literally screaming and asking 
them to do any other test but that 
Other people were there and they 
consented to the test easily 
She was the only one who was 
apprehensive about it, why? 
Because she was scared that her past 
sexual decisions would prove to be that 
costly Faithful partners have the benefit 
of rest of mind
Finally, the Holy Spirit is the perfect cure 
for the human condition If you have taken 
the pains to read this and you need help 
in any way, please send me a DM or a 
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I love you with all my heart 
Please reach out. 
God bless you