Pat's Bliss
He was abroad.
She was in Nigeria.
They were in love and planning to
get married.
He cared a lot but not as much as
she wanted.
Her friend's husband always gave her
a monthly allowance starting from
when they were courting which helped
her take care of small needs while she
was studying.
She had a small trade and was studying
part-time at the same time so she wanted
him to give her a monthly allowance like
her friend received too but he wouldn't.
He instead compared her to his lady
friends who were already building their
own houses.
She felt hurt and belittled.
She was born again but was not filled
with the Holy Spirit so she responded
out of carnality.
She promised herself to expand her
business, make her own money and
have a building in motion by the time
he returned to Nigeria.
She was so desperate to make money
and prove to her fiance that she was
adequate so she returned to her former
life of "sugar daddying" since he was
oceans, forests and deserts away from
her.
She got a stand-in job for one month
in a marketing outfit for a staff who
had to go for exams.
That was where they met.
He was tall, good looking and obviously
successful.
She helped him cover for his delay in
supplying items for an event and he
asked her over to his office to "appreciate
her saving help".
She knew what he wanted.
Though she had promised God a
thousand times over never to sleep with
any man other than her husband again,
she was bent on proving her fiance
wrong by making big money and she
knew no better or quicker way so when
he knocked, she opened.
She would later find out that it was
the worst decision of her life.
He did give her money but she was
better than that and so she lost her
peace afterwards.
She told him it was over on the phone
when he called her again but he talked
her into ending it face to face so they
met again and had a "goodbye sex".
She stopped seeing him.
Months later her fiance suggested that
they get married in his absence so she
could join him abroad since he had paper
issues and could not come home.
They picked a date when his family and
hers would come together for their
traditional wedding while she applied for
a visiting Visa.
The wedding held with his brother standing
in his stead but the Visa application was
not approved.
One month after the ceremony she took ill.
Her mother noticed she had fever at nights
and told her to go for a check-up.
That was doomsday!
A day she wishes she could erase from
her story.
The tests revealed she was HIV positive!
She cried! She knew it was from him.
She knew her former HIV status before
they met.
She imagined the worst things!
Why did she not listen early enough?
Why did she not stop when He
(The Holy Spirit) told her to?
She recalled in that very moment how
He told her to leave a hotel room where
she was waiting for one of her former
"clients" and she responded vocally,
asking Him to leave her alone that she
wanted to enjoy her life here as her
fiance abroad was doing too.
She cried all the more and with the
result in her hands, she ran to her
church at the time and cried on the altar,
reliving her guilt and asking for mercy
and healing.
After some time, she confronted her
suspect and he could not deny it.
She hated him.
Every day of her life since then
became hell.
She had known and unknown fears.
Her husband could not return still and
she could not go to join him too.
She really wanted to tell him what had
befallen her but not over the phone.
What If he overreacted and told his
people and they in turn told the world?
What if her parents heard it?
She could not bear to watch her father
die slowly from the news so she bore
her cross alone and hoped her fiance
would return soon so she could tell him.
She dreaded his return and the possible
shame that could befall her.
She fell into depression, praying many
nights not to wake up to the dawn of
the following day.
Oh how she lost all zeal to live!
She managed to finish her schooling
but she was a "dead man walking"
She began to receive antiretroviral
treatment but her soul was badly
and deeply battered.
A friend of hers who was living with
them at the time introduced her to a
school of The Spirit.
She started healing but very slowly.
Five years after, her husband returned
and as soon as they were alone,
She told him what happened.
As expected he unleashed hell upon
her and ended the relationship
immediately but she begged him not
to expose her and he did not.
None of their family members understood
what went wrong.
They both kept mute and then he
returned to his residence abroad extremely
sad and hurt.
He would not ask after her wellbeing nor
talk to her.
She wanted him to forgive her and take
her back.
After all, HIV is no longer a death sentence
but he blocked her from reaching him as
much as possible.
Her people began to ask questions.
She told them he left for her own good
and that they would know the story
someday.
They were unhappy with Him because
they believed their daughter was an angel
and so it had to be him who messed up
things and their daughter was only covering
up for him as she does that a lot.
Two years passed and she wanted to
dissolve the marriage formerly and start
dreaming again.
He was still hurting and wanted nothing
to do with her.
At this time all she needed was His
forgiveness.
Then a friend introduced her to PSSBC,
a school where men are taught to be
who God made them to be in the first
place.
She learned that her sins had been paid
for by Christ's death on the cross, that
by Grace alone is any man worthy of
sonship to God and so was delivered
completely of the guilt that kept her
bound all these years.
She also learned to take charge of her
own reality so when he would not respond
to her plea to dissolve the marriage
formerly so she can move on with her life,
she took charge by The help of The Holy
Spirit and following His divine instruction,
he forgave her and has agreed to a
proper dissolution of the marriage.
Her story is not over.
Her life has begun again.
Has she learned her lessons?
Oh yes a thousand times!
But then what return did you get from
the things of which you are now
ashamed? The end of those things
is death. Romans 6:21 RSV.
In the flesh, the answer is Nothing.
But in the spirit,
And we know that for those who love
God all things work together for good,
for those who are called according to
his purpose. Romans 8:28 ESV
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