Pat's Bliss

Pat's Bliss


He was abroad. 
She was in Nigeria.
They were in love and planning to 
get married. 
He cared a lot but not as much as 
she wanted. 
Her friend's husband always gave her 
a monthly allowance starting from 
when they were courting which helped 
her take care of small needs while she 
was studying. 
She had a small trade and was studying 
part-time at the same time so she wanted 
him to give her a monthly allowance like 
her friend received too but he wouldn't.  
He instead compared her to his lady 
friends who were already building their 
own houses. 
She felt hurt and belittled. 
She was born again but was not filled 
with the Holy Spirit so she responded 
out of carnality. 
She promised herself to expand her 
business, make her own money and 
have a building in motion by the time 
he returned to Nigeria. 
She was so desperate to make money 
and prove to her fiance that she was 
adequate so she returned to her former 
life of "sugar daddying" since he was 
oceans, forests and deserts away from 
her. 
She got a stand-in job for one month 
in a marketing outfit for a staff who 
had to go for exams. 
That was where they met. 
He was tall, good looking and obviously 
successful. 
She helped him cover for his delay in 
supplying items for an event and he 
asked her over to his office to "appreciate 
her saving help". 
She knew what he wanted. 
Though she had promised God a 
thousand times over never to sleep with 
any man other than her husband again, 
she was bent on proving her fiance 
wrong by making big money and she 
knew no better or quicker way so when 
he knocked, she opened. 
She would later find out that it was 
the worst decision of her life. 
He did give her money but she was 
better than that and so she lost her 
peace afterwards. 
She told him it was over on the phone 
when he called her again but he talked 
her into ending it face to face so they 
met again and had a "goodbye sex". 
She stopped seeing him.
Months later her fiance suggested that 
they get married in his absence so she 
could join him abroad since he had paper 
issues and could not come home. 
They picked a date when his family and 
hers would come together for their 
traditional wedding while she applied for 
a visiting Visa. 
The wedding held with his brother standing 
in his stead but the Visa application was 
not approved. 
One month after the ceremony she took ill. 
Her mother noticed she had fever at nights 
and told her to go for a check-up. 
That was doomsday! 
A day she wishes she could erase from 
her story. 
The tests revealed she was HIV positive! 
She cried! She knew it was from him. 
She knew her former HIV status before 
they met. 
She imagined the worst things! 
Why did she not listen early enough? 
Why did she not stop when He 
(The Holy Spirit) told her to? 
She recalled in that very moment how 
He told her to leave a hotel room where 
she was waiting for one of her former 
"clients" and she responded vocally, 
asking Him to leave her alone that she 
wanted to enjoy her life here as her 
fiance abroad was doing too. 
She cried all the more and with the 
result in her hands, she ran to her 
church at the time and cried on the altar, 
reliving her guilt and asking for mercy 
and healing. 
After some time, she confronted her 
suspect and he could not deny it. 
She hated him. 
Every day of her life since then 
became hell. 
She had known and unknown fears. 
Her husband could not return still and 
she could not go to join him too. 
She really wanted to tell him what had 
befallen her but not over the phone. 
What If he overreacted and told his 
people and they in turn told the world? 
What if her parents heard it? 
She could not bear to watch her father 
die slowly from the news so she bore 
her cross alone and hoped her fiance 
would return soon so she could tell him. 
She dreaded his return and the possible 
shame that could befall her. 
She fell into depression, praying many 
nights not to wake up to the dawn of 
the following day. 
Oh how she lost all zeal to live! 
She managed to finish her schooling 
but she was a "dead man walking" 
She began to receive antiretroviral 
treatment but her soul was badly 
and deeply battered. 
A friend of hers who was living with 
them at the time introduced her to a 
school of The Spirit. 
She started healing but very slowly. 
Five years after, her husband returned 
and as soon as they were alone, 
She told him what happened. 
As expected he unleashed hell upon 
her and ended the relationship 
immediately but she begged him not 
to expose her and he did not. 
None of their family members understood 
what went wrong. 
They both kept mute and then he 
returned to his residence abroad extremely
 sad and hurt. 
He would not ask after her wellbeing nor 
talk to her. 
She wanted him to forgive her and take 
her back. 
After all, HIV is no longer a death sentence 
but he blocked her from reaching him as 
much as possible. 
Her people began to ask questions. 
She told them he left for her own good 
and that they would know the story 
someday. 
They were unhappy with Him because 
they believed their daughter was an angel 
and so it had to be him who messed up 
things and their daughter was only covering 
up for him as she does that a lot. 
Two years passed and she wanted to 
dissolve the marriage formerly and start 
dreaming again. 
He was still hurting and wanted nothing 
to do with her. 
At this time all she needed was His 
forgiveness. 
Then a friend introduced her to PSSBC, 
a school where men are taught to be 
who God made them to be in the first 
place. 
She learned that her sins had been paid 
for by Christ's death on the cross, that 
by Grace alone is any man worthy of 
sonship to God and so was delivered 
completely of the guilt that kept her 
bound all these years. 
She also learned to take charge of her 
own reality so when he would not respond 
to her plea to dissolve the marriage 
formerly so she can move on with her life, 
she took charge by The help of The Holy 
Spirit and following His divine instruction, 
he forgave her and has agreed to a 
proper dissolution of the marriage. 
Her story is not over. 
Her life has begun again. 
Has she learned her lessons? 
Oh yes a thousand times! 
But then what return did you get from 
the things of which you are now 
ashamed? The end of those things 
is death. Romans 6:21 RSV.
In the flesh, the answer is Nothing. 
But in the spirit, 
And we know that for those who love 
God all things work together for good, 
for those who are called according to 
his purpose. Romans 8:28 ESV