Her father waited until she was 12 before actually penetrating her
He was gentle and did it slowly
He said she was doing it to keep them together. If she didn’t do it, they would be separated
She didn’t understand half of what he was saying
What she remembered was holding his ‘Thing’ and rubbing it ‘Up and down” with olive oil once or twice a week since (around) the age of nine
Then putting ‘it’ in her mouth and helping him draw out the ‘poison of the devil’ in his system so that “he will not die’ because if he died she would have no one to take care of her.
Her mother left when she was still very young
She was a good girl
Her father took care of her, treated her with ‘’respect’’ and ‘’dignity’’ (Her words)
He always told her he would never cheat on her and anybody who did so deserved to die!
She believed him
Her father was very careful, she never got pregnant and nobody suspected anything out of place was going on
He was a businessman who worked hard and focused on making a life for his only daughter
He told her he could have married another wife but the new wife would probably hate her and maltreat her. He would rather kill himself than allow anybody to maltreat his daughter
She was his ‘’wife’’!
By the age of fifteen she was comfortably sharing his bed. It was the natural thing to do!
To her it was black and white.
He could have thrown her away or given her up for adoption, he didn’t.
He could have sent her to live with his relatives. He didn’t.
He could have married another wife and be happy, he didn’t.
He gave up everything for her. He loved her
When she turned 18 she gained admission to study law in the University. She left home for the first time.
She had never ever considered the possibility of having a relationship. That would be cheating.
Many guys came calling. She calmly told them she was married.
Her father died suddenly when she was in her final year. He was her meaning, her reality, her world.
She made it through law school by the whiskers
She lived in a dazed bubble for almost two years
A friend invited her for a comedy show.
She decided to go through the motions
A man walked up to her.
He smelled like lavender
Man: Would you like a seat at the table for 10 section? My boss invited some of us to this show but I didn’t know I was supposed to come with a “Friend”. You can leave anytime you want
She didn’t say a word, she just followed him
They hit it off
He made her laugh
He made her happy
The bubble busted
She felt loved again
She had never told anybody about her relationship with her father and its complications
She told him
He listened carefully and advised her to see a psychiatric doctor. “Though you look fine and perfectly alright on the surface, one can never underestimate the devastating effect of hurricane ‘sex abuse’ once it was unleashed”
She shrugged it off
They somehow grew closer after then
He was 15 years older than her, a widow with a daughter
He was into real estate.
One year after they met, they became lovers
Six months later, she came to spend the weekend with him. She met his daughter and suddenly felt very uneasy.
They were ‘too close’
The way the young lady looked at her, talked to her, related with her father, looked at him!
She accused him of sleeping with his daughter!
He was shocked!
She didn’t believe him. She called child protective services and told them her suspicions
They asked her for evidence
She had none
They told her to come back when she got some hard evidence
She called him, “Can we meet?”
He came over to her place
He advised that she sees a psychiatrist immediately
He wanted to leave, she pleaded, “Please if you have truly forgiven me, stay the night”.
She needed help badly. It seems to him she was bursting at the seams, coming undone, unhinged!
He calmed her down
He stayed with her, she smiled into eyes as he slept off
She snuck out of bed, got a knife and stabbed him 13 times
Her father’s voice had been ringing in her ears “Anybody who cheats on you deserves to die!”
“Yes Daddy, he deserved to die!”
That was what the police found her shouting when they arrived at the scene
PS: He was not abusing his daughter, doctors and psychiatrists tested and interviewed her. Her reaction was normal for a young lady in her circumstances
***She was remanded in prison for many years and was recently committed into a psychiatric hospital