Abberations

I was born into a very big polygamous home
Therre were six wives  and many children
My father was very wealthy
He was also an idol worshipper
I didn't know much about this until I grew up
I just know he had a small dark place in his
room where he did stuff
I grew up very well
Academically I was the best student in my
school throughout secondary school
When I started seeking admission into the 
University, things became difficult
JAMB withheld my result four times in a row
without offering me any form of explanation
I had to settle for a pre-degree course and
abandon my dream of being a medical doctor
One of the reasons I wanted to be a doctor
was because of my health
I was very sickly as a child but somehow 
miraculously all the symptoms of sickness
stopped when i got to the university
After my first semester break, my mother
told me she was concerned about my health
given i had to move to campus 
She said she approached my dad and asked
him to do something about it
She said my Daddy and some people went to
the village to do something on my behalf
to stop the sickness
It worked
I became as healthy as a horse
I started having relationships in 200 Level
All the guys I dated loved me and would do
anything for me
But the moment we start talking marriage
They would suddenly go cold and distant
Some would immediately plunge into debt while
others even hated me almost immediately
Since I didn't grow up in a Christian home,
I had no clue what was happening
A few months before I graduated, my father died
After i completed my NYSC, the problem worsened
It was as if I had walked into a pot of misfortune
My life just grinded to a halt
I started following friends to church
A pastor I met with told me my Father had done
so many things and it is not likely I will ever 
be able to walk in the light anymore
I went home to tell my mother
My mother said she didn't know much
about my father but for the fact that she woke
up one day after he was dead and suddenly it
felt as if she regained her senses
My mother said she was sure she didn't marry my
father with her senses intact, all the while she
was with him, she was not herself and she could
barely remember anything tangible or real
about my father
My mother also said she was taken to a thick forest
close to my Father's village when she was pregnant 
with me
My mother said she was put in a big earthenware pot
where some people poured all sorts of concoctions
on her and also did some incisions all over her body
She said she was so scared for her safety and mine
that she started praying in her mind and calling
on God to help her
My mother was just twenty years old at the time
and she was an auxilliary nurse working for
my father in one of his pharmacies
That was what my mother remembered
She still had no recollection of how they became
involved to the point where she married him
My father was twenty-six years older than my 
mother
The pastor I met had told me to make inquiries
about my family
My mother had very little information
I went to see one of my uncles
My uncle told me my father was a juju priest and 
our family was the custodian of the village idol
I started going to church more frequently and
attending all the prayer meetings and crusades
I could
I got a job with an oil servicing firm 
I was supposed to resume on January 31st
On January, 29th I had a strange dream
I saw juju priests in their regalia chasing me 
I woke up in terror
Minutes later I started feeling stomach pains
as if I wanted to die
I was rushed to the hospital and I was told
it was fibroid and that the fibroid has grown
so big it was cutting off on its own
An emergency surgery was conducted
Two weeks later, the surgery site got strangely
infected and i was ill for anoher six months
I lost the job
I lost all my savings
I sold off everything in the boutique I was running
I was booked for another surgery to drain all the
fluids that gathered in my stomach because of the'
infection
I was scared I was going to die
A neighbour took me to a church
It was different from a normal church
They worship on Saturday, wear white garment,
doesn't believe in Jesus and the Holy Spirit
They only worship according to the law of Moses
They offer all sorts of sacrifices
My beggar had no choice
The Pastor told me about a man that comes to sleep
with me in my dreams
I have never told anyone about this man
The pastor said it was the man that was
scattering my life because my father had
pledged me to him in the spirit realm in
exchange for some things my father needed
from the demon
The man asked me to boil some water, let it
cool down and bring it to the church the
following day
He added some ashes to the water and told me
to start drinking it
I did as he instructed and I became well
I didn't have to do the surgery
The fluid drained on its own
I relocated to Port-Harcourt to try and get a job
Some months later, i was invited to the 
headquarters of the church for their Feast
of Tabernacles
I was asked to buy pigeons for sacrifice, my hair
was shaved and burnt
The pastor told me someone would come from
abroad to marry me
A few months later, an ex of mine who had
become a USA citizen came to look for me
He said he wanted to marry me
We had sex
Everything scattered
It was the same old pattern even though I had
done sacrifices and allowed my head to be shaved
I decided I didn't want anything to do with
the church again
I started having strange nightmares
I went in search of help
Went to many churches for deliverance and prayer
My situation didn't get any better
I was taken to another pastor with dread locks
He said my father had gifted me to the spirit of 
the shrine
He prayed for me
10 years after graduation, i got a teaching job
All the previous sicknesses and diseases
came back
The fibroid and all sorts of attack
I had done all sorts of things to be free
I had killed goats for sacrifice
I had done spiritual divorce from spirit husband
I had gone to the river to renounce covenants
Somewhere along the way something happened 
to me
It was a strange sensation all over my body
My family members got scared
My brother called the white garment church
where they didn't believe in Jesus
The pastor told them to bring me
When I got there, i was given something like
ash in water to drink and wash my head with
I became well
The pastor told me i must wither join them or die
I agreed to join them
He said I was a prophetess and had to be trained
I was enrolled in their theological school
A school of suffering where we walk barefooted,
are not allowed to pray in tongues (They said it is
a demonic language), they said Jesus is a messenger
and a prophet and they condemn the new testament
They said salvation was only by the law of Moses
I was in serious dilema
I cried day and night
The death i wanted to avoid seemed like a better
option to living under that kind of oppression
I went on a hunger strike and lost weight
They felt I was going to die in their camp, so they let me go
I no longer know what is true from what is not true
My pains and discomforts are real
I was diagnosed with Cervical Spibdylosis
reflux disease, depression and PTSD
That much I know 
But I don't know what is true anymore about 
God and Jesus and the Holy Spirit
I have met so many pastors, all saying and doing
different things
I am scared of going to church
I have B.Sc Industrial Mathematics and Diploma
in Accounting and Business
I want Jesus to change my story

Ps: Salvation is free
Men complicate the gift of God
Destinies are truncated due to the
ignorance or the wickedness of men
Her father did many things that naturally
should affect the children
But if she had been offered salvation in
Jesus Christ and filled with the Holy Spirit
She wouldn't have suffered on and on
Ignorance makes us seek the light in darkness
Jesus was always willing to help anyone who calls
upon him
Are you reading this and you have been told
your father did something or your family was
into something and as a consequence your life
must be lived under a certain condition?
Not when you are in Christ!
In Christ there is no past!
"If any man or woman be in Christ, he or she is a
new creature. old things have passed away
Behold, all things are become new"

GSW's notes: Events happened in Port-Harcourt and environs

She is fine now
There are tresholds we cross and it would
seem we can never return
but while there is life, there is hope
As she opened up her spirit to the Holy Spirit
and bask daily under the power of the living Word
her reality is being transformed daily!
She went through a lot due to ignorance
But Christ is a restorer like no other

I share this story to open your eyes to see
what a mess demons and their agents make
out of human lives
You don't have to be a victim
Come to Jesus today