Juliet Must Die

There's this guy have been dating for 
like 10 years now. 
The journey in between those years 
has been like a roller coaster ride. 
More sadness than happiness
The truth is so many awful things have 
happened that I am so embarrassed to 
share it with anyone. 
This is one of the reasons why I didn't
send you a message all this while
As much as I regret every bit of it, I 
caused it too
I think I will have to tell you the story 
so you will understand.
Sorry I messaged you so late this night. 
I'm just at the point where I'm about to 
give up on everything
I met him when he came to check on 
someone in my hostel back in school. 
It was towards the end of my pre-degree 
programme in school.
 I was a virgin when I met him even though 
I have been a little careless with guys but 
I remained a virgin. 
We started going out and I later became 
attached.  
We went to a dinner party one night in 
school and I couldn't go back to my 
hostel. 
So I had to go to his hostel. 
He asked for sex but I told him No
 Told him I wasn't ready because I 
wanted to have it with the person 
I will get married to, like my sisters did 
(I wanted to be like them).
After that night, nothing happened until 
he saw a guy's text message on my 
phone. 
He got angry and also one of his friends 
told him I gave another guy attention. 
Then I had to start begging him to 
forgive me. 
I went to his hostel that night to beg 
him and I had to sleep over. 
That was when it happened.
And because of the vow I made that 
I will only sleep with my future husband. 
He automatically became the guy I 
wanted to spend my life with.
Our love became strong that I couldn't 
go a day without talking to him. 
All my friends knew him but none of 
my family members knew about him 
or that I was even in a relationship.
We were strong like that till when I 
got a full admission and resumed 
for 100lvl. 
I had a best friend that became my 
roommate in school.  
My boyfriend started visiting me in 
my hostel and sometimes I will go 
to him place. 
I got pregnant in 100vl, can't remember 
if its first or second semester. 
 I was so scared. 
I told him but he wasn't angry, he was 
just confused and asked me what I 
wanted to do with it. 
We reached a conclusion and he 
took me to where I will abort it. 
I thought I was going to die, 
I was given drugs and I was told what 
to do and what not to do. 
After the abortion, my love for him 
got out of hand. 
I practically worshipped him, did 
everything he wanted, I started 
acting like a submissive wife. 
If he needs money, I will give him, 
if he's hungry I will cook for him etc
He drinks a lot but I don't mind. 
I still loved him. He has anger issue 
but I don't mind.
One day, I was in my hostel in the 
night and I started hearing voices 
outside, one of which belonged to 
my boyfriend. 
I ran outside and saw my boyfriend 
fighting with my bike man. 
I tried to calm him down and took 
him inside. 
I went out again to settle the bike man. 
When I got inside, I told him that 
what he did is not good and that 
was how and when it started. 
He beat me up right inside my room 
and left. 
I tried lying to everyone that he didn't 
touch me just to cover up but they 
all saw through my lies. 
They advised me and I said I was going 
to break up with him. 
He called me the next day to beg me 
and told me he wanted to see me. 
I obeyed and went to  his place. 
I forgave him and we moved on. 
I placed him above everyone else
Then, I started noticing that he had 
another girl he's dating.  
My friends told me, but I did not pay 
attention to them, instead I will report 
them to him, even when I eventually 
knew, I was not moved, as long as 
I know he loves me and i love him too. 
I mostly help him financially and we 
always fight anything he sees me 
chatting with other guys.  
Fast forward till I got to 300lvl (he was 
in 400lvl) I changed my hostel and 
luckily it was closer to his, so I mostly 
spend my days and nights with him. 
Of a guy calls me, he would tell me to 
call the person back and say never 
to call me again. 
Meanwhile, I was always chatting with 
a particular guy but any time I'm going 
to my boyfriends place, I do tell him 
and I would end the chat.
We were on holiday when I saw his 
pictures on his status. 
He had an accident. I was so scared that 
I couldn't really eat.  
Later, I was able to talk to him on phone 
and he told me what happened.  
He broke one of his legs and the 
other was dislocated, he was to go 
through a series of surgeries. 
I got back to school and after few weeks. 
we both decided that I should come 
to his mom's house to see him. 
I was so happy and at the same 
time nervous. 
I was going to see my boyfriend's mom.  
I got there and tried to adapt to 
their lifestyle.  
After I got back to school, the other 
guy that I had been talking to 
Sent me a message to come and say 
hello to him. 
I was so bored that day and decided 
to go, like a visit won't hurt.
I got there, we gisted and talked. 
He actually asked me if I can still 
consider him, like double dating him 
with my boyfriend, I told him I can't 
and moreover, it won't lead anywhere 
because he is a Christian. 
I actually like him because he's not 
as hot tempered as my boyfriend but 
I really can't date a Christian because 
of family reasons, and I don't want to 
date for fun. 
We kissed and he wanted to take it 
further but I stood my ground and 
said No, then I said it's getting late 
that I need to get back to my hostel
My boyfriend came back to school a 
few weeks later with crutches. 
He needed help, so I do leave my 
hostel to his to help do some few 
things. 
One night I was sleeping beside him 
and he woke me up in the middle of 
the night and showed me videos on 
my phone. 
The video was me walking out of a place. 
(The night I left the guy's house, there 
was not light so I on the touch of my 
BlackBerry but didn't know it recorded)
I was scared and at the same time 
thinking about how to lie to him. 
I lied but he didn't believe, so he beat 
me up so I could tell him the truth. 
I told him and he asked if we had sex, 
I told him NO, he didn't believe and kept 
on beating me naked. 
He then took my naked pictures and 
threatened to post it online.
I was scared, so I told my school mother 
and one of my brother's friend in school. 
They all came to his hostel, took it 
him to the man o' war base in school 
then, they collected his laptop and 
deleted all the pictures.  
After the matter was settled. 
I was told to break up with him and 
not see him again. 
I stopped seeing him for almost a week 
but when he called me again and 
begged me, I left all the advice people 
gave me and forgave him. 
I told him I was at fault too that was 
how continued our relationship. 
I started losing friends, I had a fight 
with my roommate too. 
I stopped listening to everyone. 
My school mother thought it wasn't an 
ordinary love and took me to a white 
garment pastor. 
The pastor prayed and said some silly 
things that my boyfriend gave me 
something to eat, that's why I was 
behaving like that. 
I was scared because I wasn't used to 
all those kind of lifestyle.  
I stopped picking his calls but later 
went to him to accuse him of giving 
me something to eat that he's using me. 
He begged me and told me all was a lie. 
I believed him and concluded that 
the pastor lied, I also noticed that it 
seems my school and the man wanted 
to scare me away from my boyfriend, 
that was why he said that. 
So, that was how I started hating 
pastors.
My friends had to report me to my 
cousin and elder brother, they told 
them what happened and my brother 
called me telling me he must never 
see me with the guys again. 
Eventually what I was trying to hide 
in school became a family matter. 
My brother called my two sisters 
and aunt. 
He told them and that was how my 
relationship with my family became 
somehow, they saw me as a shame 
to the family, they even saw me as 
a prostitute, as a disgrace. 
Hence, the beginning of my depression. 
My family asked if I have aborted for 
him, i lied, I told them No because I 
could not longer bear the shame.  
I was so angry at people and the 
only person I could lean on was 
my boyfriend. 
So I moved out of my hostel, went to 
another friend's place and used that 
as a play hiding place
What happened made me see my 
boyfriend's true color.
 I realized that not only does he drinks, 
but he smokes weed too. 
It was too late for me to back out, so 
I accepted him that way. 
I still loved him more than myself.  
After settling down at me friend's place, 
I told my bf where I was and I do go 
to his hostel to visit him, some times 
I will send the night there
One day, he was going through my 
phone and saw a name on my contact 
list, he said who did I saved as 
"Homie" 
I told him the person was someone
he knows
He said how will I save a guy's name 
as Homie if I'm not dating him. 
Then he said I was cheating on him. 
I said no that the guy is just a friend, 
that he stared slapping me telling 
me to delete his number. 
Meanwhile, one of his friend was 
inside with us but that one didn't 
stop him. 
I managed to ran out of the room 
and went to my friends place. 
I didn't tell anyone since there was 
no bruise
Later, he stared looking for me in 
school asking where I was. 
He saw me and started begging me 
that he is sorry. 
I told him not to worry that I'm sorry 
too.
1During the time I said he beat me up 
naked and took my pictures, he told me 
he was dating another girl and there's 
nothing I can do. 
He said he can't marry the girl though.
We had a little fight again, cant remember 
what happened.  
He told me about another girl that he's 
dating again.
Anytime we fight, he unveils some truth 
to me.
I got to school after my IT and started 
living with my boyfriend we were good 
together until he started seeing signs 
that I did an abortion. 
I tried so hard to hide it and lie but he 
always sees through my lies. 
I eventually told him everything that 
happened and what I did during IT. 
That was when the problem started. 
He would beat me up to the point 
I wont be able to walk again. 
He will beg md and feed me. 
Another day, another beating. 
I had nowhere to go because all 
my friends left me because of him. 
Sometimes, he will wake me up in 
the middle of the night to talk to me 
and asked me why I did it. 
That will lead to another beating. 
No one in his hostel could intervene 
because they all fear him
I was in 500lvl then and he had an 
extra year, so he had to repeat 500lvl.
He made me realized I was at fault 
I agreed that fucked up and that he 
should forgive me and let's move on. 
He said No problem but anytime he 
remembers, he would beat me up. 
His smoking habit became worse 
that he didn't hide it from me again 
and I never bothered. 
So, it got to a point that I could no
longer hold it again. 
I ran to a friend's place. 
She knew what happened because 
my boyfriend told her. 
Meanwhile, I gave him the money I 
brought form home after IT including 
my school fees, just to make peace 
reign. 
School went on strike for few months 
and when I got back, my friend told 
me to pack out of his place to her 
place that he might kill me one day
I packed to my friend's place before 
he came back to school.  
I had an extra key. 
My friends taught me how to be mean 
to him, they made me happy. 
He came back and started looking for me. 
I told him I don't want to live with him 
anymore more and he start begging. 
I told him I would be visiting him any 
time that is convenient with me.
It was close to our exam period and it's 
time to pay school fees. 
I have never delayed paying my school 
but because he made me spend the 
money I couldn't pay in time.  
I started looking for money. 
He told me I can pay part payment since 
we were still in first semester 
(I have never payed part payment before) 
I agreed he gave me 20k out or 35 
that I'm suppose to pay. 
Had to call a family friend in New York, 
told her I have financial issues,
she sent me 10k, went to meet a male 
friend of mine in school, he gave me 10k.
During the period of me looking for 
money I met a guy Dammy. 
He knew my boyfriend. 
He saw me crying and asked what 
happened. 
I told him and he gave me some 
money too. I played my school fees
I really do not know what happened 
but Dammy later told me that he 
needs to settle the fight between 
my boyfriend and I 
He insisted that he does not want problem. 
He settled it and I had to go back to my 
boyfriend.  
Boyfriend begged me to the extent that 
I couldn't say No to him. 
I still loved him
Second semester, I left my friend's place 
and moved back to my bf's place.
Were both living fine. 
We only fight any time he remembers 
the last abortion I did for another guy. 
I do tell him I will never cheat on him 
again that he's the one I want to be with. 
He promised never to leave me and 
I believe him. 
He made me promise to always be with 
him. Even though my family doesn't 
like him due to what has happened 
in the past, I never cared, all I wanted 
was to be with him and that was my 
decision. I was at my friend's place and
 he called me one day, I went to his 
place in the night, we talked and I told 
him I'm sleeping at my friend's place, 
not his place 
He said no that I should sleep, we 
started arguing and he started beating 
me again. 
I ran out and went to my friends place. 
Tell both of them what happened and 
they asked if I wanted to make him 
suffer that they can make it happen. 
I said No. 
Boyfriend came that same night to 
beg me. He said he was not in his right 
mind that he's sorry, said he was just 
frustrated. 
I told him no problem. 
I avoided him for a while nd then I went 
back again. 
The truth is he always told me I will 
never see any guy that will love me
 like he does and i won't see any guy 
that will accept me again. 
I believed and decided to stick to him.
Fast forward till after school.
 I served in ogun State. 
He came to visit me one day and we 
were talking. 
He saw a chat on my phone with a 
male friend.
 He got angry and said I was cheating 
on him. 
He got angry and slapped me.  
I begged him and he said no problem. 
After service year, we were still talking, 
just our normal fights and arguments. 
Last year, he asked me how far about 
us getting married. 
I told him I needed time. 
He said he doesn't have time that his 
mom is the only parent he have alive 
and he wants her to see his child. 
I said ok. 
He gave me time but then I was 
already getting tired of the relationship 
but I couldn't tell him, I couldn't tell 
anyone, I just lived as if my life was fine.
This year especially during our Ramadan 
fasting I started praying.  
I never prayed about my relationship 
before because I feel have met the one, 
so no need of praying about it. 
But something in me just changed and 
I was like even if I get married to 
this guys, is this how we will be having 
arguments. 
Two days for arguments, one day for 
lovey-dovey.  
I prayed, didn't really noticed anything.  
Then I told someone else to pray for me. 
He told me some things that I don't 
really understand but my mind is 
gradually getting off him. 
July 2020, I told him I'm done with him. 
I can't move on, I'm tired. 
He thought I was joking and when he 
knew i was serious, he rushed down 
to Lagos. 
He begged me that i shouldn't leave 
him, he has no more else, I'm the 
only one. 
I told him I don't love him again like 
before
Then I started praying, I wasn't really a 
prayerful person but I still tried.
He started calling me again, sometimes, 
he will beg me, other times he would 
rain insults on me. 
Telling me I wasted his time that that 
was I looking at over 10 years. 
I became frustrated cos he would abuse 
me and threaten me
His mom came into the matter, she 
asked why I want to break up with her 
son after so many years. 
I couldn't talk, I only told her I will think 
about it, she even insists she 
wants to see me but I said I don't 
have time because of my work. 
I became frustrated and confused. 
1. He is not working at the moment we 
even fought because of that
2. He said he wanted to open a lounge. 
I didn't see any positive improvement
He called me two weeks ago. 
Telling me that I hurt him, I disgraced him, 
I embarrassed his mom. 
He said he would never forgive me and 
I will regret not marrying him. 
I was scared because I knew what he 
can do. 
He isn't going to hurt me physically but 
he would hurt me spiritually. 
I told him I would do anything he wants, 
I said it to make peace reign. 
He calmed down a bit. 
Last week he begged me, promising 
me so many things, that I won't lack 
anything when I get married to him. 
He even insists I get pregnant before 
marrying him. 
I told him no that Marriage before 
anything. 
He said ok
Someone asked me if I have any of 
my personal things with him that he 
can use to hurt me. I said I'm careless 
that I'm not sure. 
I was only told to be careful with him 
and not to annoy him because he might 
to to any length to hurt me
Yesterday night he called me again. 
Telling me that he knows I am seeing 
someone else that I'm just lying to him. 
He told me to say that I am no longer 
interested in him. 
I didn't talk. 
He said he needed all his files on my 
system that I shold look for a way to 
send them to him. 
He then kept on saying that I will regret 
hurting him for the rest of my life. 
My family will be hurt too. 
I'm so scared

PS: There is a love that builds
There is a love that destroys
There is a love that is gainful
There is a love that is hurtful
Juliet must die
Romeo must die
There is a love that keeps both
Romeo and Juliet in one piece
It is in Christ
When she was with him, she had
no peace
Now apart from him she still had
no peace
If she is full of the Holy Ghost, his
threats become chaff
Oh how I wish they will both see
the light
How I wish they will both come to
know the supernatural reality we
have in the Holy Spirit