Kept

When her husband got the scholarship 
to study abroad for his Ph.D, she was full of joy! 
They were both in academia and he had 
been a very strong influence on her career 
choice and path! 
He was a big brother, a friend, and a guide! 
Her husband was a genius, an academic star 
They made all the necessary arrangements. 
It was not her husband's first time traveling 
abroad for academic purposes, he was an exchange 
student with a university in Norway as an 
undergraduate and he did his Masters 
degree in America! 
They actually met at a party in the United states 
She was an undergraduate then! It was love 
at first sight for her. 
There was something about him that called 
out to her, and unlike herself she positioned 
herself to be noticed! 
He got the hint and gave her the chase 
she deserved! 
They got married three years later in Nigeria 
They had a wonderful marriage, the first year 
was uninterrupted by work or travel! 
Their second wedding anniversary was 
approaching when he got the fully-funded scholarship!
 He made all the preparations and traveled! 
She was all enthusiastic, happy and positive 
before he left 
But barely a week after he left, she started 
feeling out of sorts. 
There was an "unsettled" cloud all about her! 
It had nothing to do with him! It was all her! 
They didnt have a child yet and she had 
hoped their farewell week everyday lovemaking 
would leave her pregnant for him  
When she saw her period, it triggered something! 
The problem was silent, it was like tension 
building gradually! 
She started having all sorts of strange thoughts 
and ideas about their marriage! 
She didnt enjoy living alone and having no one
 to share her bed with! Everything was odd 
He called one evening and she burst into tears! 
It was really tough for her 
She was lonely and unhappy 
He was really concerned for her 
The next day, a friend of his showed up! 
He was their best man 
The friend was in the academia with them 
and happily married 
He came with his wife 
The friend and his wife drew very close to her 
She was an orphan and had always longed 
for a family of her own 
They tried as much as possible to bridge the gap 
She was not helpless but she needed the 
company badly 
They went to church together and she spent 
a lot of time with them 
As days turned to weeks, she found herself 
developing a strange chemistry with her 
husband's friend He was a good listener, 
caring to a fault She had caught him looking 
at her "that way" 
She knew when a man wanted to ravish her 
He did 
She knew he would, if she gave him the chance 
She found herself fantasizing about him 
She needed the sex 
Plus, she really didnt know what her husband
 was doing to satisfy himself sexually where 
he was 
She didn't want to be a faithful loser 
Why not live in the moment 
Enjoy the sex... 
Nobody needed to know! It's just sex! 
Sex 
Husband's friend noticed her girly flirts 
as soon as she started throwing them at him 
It was a subtle green light He measured up 
They started meeting alone 
Talking in abstracts 
Touching each other with a warm familiarity 
She knew they were building up a deliberate 
fire of lust  
They would both jump into it and then claim 
they were overtaken by the moment 
She knew the game 
She knew how the devil will be blamed 
Some tears and guilt would follow 
They will end up stopping somehow 
Or they may end up together 
It would cause a scandal 
Why think that far ahead? 
They started going out without his wife 
She told him where the extra key to her 
apartment was 
She would call him and ask him to bring 
somethings by on his way back from work 
They spent like an hour together twice a week 
Just to talk 
Eventually, they kissed! 
It was soft and tingly! 
The day after they kissed, he called her and 
told her he wouldn't want to come around 
any more He could see that they were playing 
with fire 
She told him they can control it 
He was the reason she had not committed suicide 
It was all manipulations 
He wanted to sleep with her! 
She wanted to sleep with him 
Neither of the wanted the burden of the guilt 
So he created an excuse and she opened 
the door wider! 
He said he would come and see her the next 
morning, they needed to talk 
She knew he was coming to sleep with her 
She was longing for the sex too! 
6:30 AM the next morning, her phone rang 
She picked! 
It was the Brother in Jeans and T-shirt! 
He introduced himself 
She knew him from twitter
 She didn't know how he got her phone number 
He said she had sent him her phone number 
months before when he was creating a 
WhatsApp group for the GSWMI Intercessory group
She remembered 
The Brother in Jeans and T-shirt said 
"I was praying and I feel a strong urge to 
call you, are you fine?" 
She wanted to say everything was fine 
To her surprise, she found herself crying 
like a baby and telling him everything 
She tried but couldn't stop herself!  
They spoke for over two hours 
He listened 
She unburdened
 It was as if the Holy Spirit took a pin to a balloon! 
She had been so pent up, so tensed up 
By the time the conversation ended, 
she was feeling light 
She was shocked by the timing of the Holy Spirit 
It was very surreal!  
They prayed together 
She was filled with the Holy Spirit 
She prayed in tongues Her heart was full of joy 
The call ended around 9am 
Her husband's friend called at 10am 
She told him not to come around again 
Her weak knees had been strengthened! 
She was gushing with living waters 
Eighteen months flew by
 Her husband returned 
There was no guilt, no shame 
She couldn't believe she was able to 
somehow keep it together 
Jesus did it 
Her husband entered into his temple 
His seed found life 
She delivered a baby boy in September 2019 
The Holy Spirit kept her from falling!