Stained?

She grew up in a large family 
Her father was a rich, titled chief 
Her mother was a matron 
There were five of them 
She had an elder sister 
The other children were boys 
Everybody lived with them 
Her relatives, even nonrelatives throng 
the house every day of the week 
They were rich 
Her father's house was a mecca of sorts 
She couldn't remember a time when there 
was less than thirty people living under 
their roof at once 
Her father had a mansion and the compound 
had boys quarters and girls chalets 
Her father was a popular philanthropist 
with a heart of gold 
The problem was the exposure 
They had to mingle with all sorts of people 
She remembered herself, at age seven, 
getting fingered by one of the faceless "relatives" 
living with them at the time! 
She also remembered a guy putting her hand 
on his "thing" and saying "let her learn"! 
Other guys we're there! 
Everybody was laughing! 
She didn't really understand what was going on! 
She remembered the pornographic videos! 
Once her father and mother were out of the 
house, the video cassettes would surface 
out of nowhere, they would watch all sorts 
of perversion!  
It ruined her! The "Daddy and Mummy"
 play-acting led to closet adventures! 
Fondling and groping in wardrobes, 
hiding places, whispers of a nameless feeling! 
She remembered doing oral sex at 10! 
Not with one but with many of her "relatives"!
 She didn't even know right from wrong! 
By the age of twelve, she started having sex! 
The rumor spread subtly in her school! 
Boys boasted about it! 
Some, bold enough to want to check it out 
became her friends! 
She liked the attention! 
She loved the power it gave her over them! 
She didn't disappoint any of them! 
Sometimes after school she would meet 
with boys in deserted classrooms and 
they would do all sorts! Sex became a hobby! 
Something she did when she wanted to while 
away time or forget her sorrow or just to have fun! 
Somehow her secret was kept at home 
Nobody suspected or noticed!  
There was no scandal, not even a hint of one! 
She was born into a Christian home! 
She loved going to church! 
Her father was especially proud of her 
religious dedication! 
She loved going to church for the sex! 
There were many horny boys and she was 
the queen of the pack! 
By the time she finished from secondary school, 
she had gone through four abortions! 
The experiences didn't deter her 
She only learned the hard way how to be careful 
She found herself unable to form an attachment 
to any man 
She was alone answerable to only her own 
emotional needs! 
She studied Banking and Finance 
She graduated as an average student 
Her father got her a job in a bank 
She settled down to spinsterhood 
She rented her own apartment and lived alone 
She loved her life 
Whenever she wanted to have sex 
She had pick-up joints and bars she frequented 
Men are always looking for free sex 
She didn't care if the lucky guy was single or married 
She asked for nothing apart from the ability to satisfy 
her sexually 
She did not sleep with anyone twice 
She did not sleepover with any of her picks 
It was the life she wanted 
Freedom song  
When she clocked 27, she suddenly got tired 
of her lifestyle 
She found herself dissatisfied and unhappy 
Sex was no longer offering her anything 
She needed a new adventure 
She started going to church, she didn't go for the sex 
She went for the crowd! It made her feel less alone! 
One Sunday as she was returning from church 
a car parked beside her 
The driver knew her by name 
He said they attended the same university 
He even knew her as a member of the hospitality 
department in her campus fellowship 
He drove her home 
He was sweet on her Very, very sweet  
She had never considered getting married 
She had never had any real relationship 
But he was determined to marry her 
She offered him sex 
He didn't take it 
He didn't also go away 
He insisted she was his wife 
It took thirteen months, he proved to her 
beyond doubt hat he was real 
She told him the whole truth 
He didn't mind! 
He even loved her more 
She gave up! 
They got married She cleaned up her acts 
and started acting as a wife should 
But old habits die hard 
Once in a while, especially when he was 
out of town She would wear her makeup 
and go fetching!  
She cried doing it 
She hated herself 
She punished herself afterward 
But she couldn't stop! 
She slept with her clients whose accounts 
she was handling 
She slept with random strangers 
It was what her body demanded 
She was totally powerless against it 
She wished she could stop 
She called the Brother in Jeans and T-shirt 
one morning "Can't I at least honour my 
husband's love for me and stop cheating? 
Why isn't impossible for me to walk the 
straight and the narrow? 
I don't want to sleep around anymore 
Please, can the Holy Spirit help men in any way? 
Please!! 
She said she had slept with hundreds of 
people by her own estimation and 
she had forgotten many! 
Her parents didn't know when she was 
under their roof 
Her husband had no clue 
But the burden of sin was heavy 
She was caving under the weight! 
She also somehow believed her "sins"
were responsible for her inability to conceive! 
Although her husband was not putting her 
under any pressure and she had enough of 
her own baggage to deal with without adding 
raising children 
She wanted to have children for her husband 
but she wanted to stop sleeping around first 
She didn't want to carry the burden of 
doubting the paternity of the children! 
She believed she needed to get rid of the 
infidelity and then tackle the childlessness! 
As long as she was unfaithful, there would 
always be a cloud hanging over her home 
She couldn't do it by herself! 
The Brother in Jeans and T-shirt told her 
to relax She was already born again 
She also spoke in tongues 
She had assumed this would automatically set her free 
But it was not so! 
Many forget that Balaam's donkey spoke in tongues 
And Balaam was able to interpret it correctly 
Speaking in tongues does not stop carnality 
from bearing fruit in our lives 
The Word is the secret of effortless change 
The Spirit, through tongues, is the secret 
of supernatural manifestations 
Believers must be grounded in both! 
They started reading the Bible together 
everyday 
Just reading out loud for one hour 
And then praying in the spirit with her 
affection set firmly on things above and 
living the life as led by the Holy Spirit 
One year went by 
She didn't cheat, she didn't even have 
the urge to! 
She got pregnant 
She delivered a set of twins! 
Wow! 
She kept at it 
Reading the Bible out loud from Genesis to Revelations 
Praying in the Holy Spirit and making Spirit-led choices
in  life 
She delivered another boy 
She grew in the things of the Spirit 
The Word transformed her and washed away 
her guilty stains 
Are you stained? 
Come to Jesus!