How come God was so biased?
How come God seemed to always reward
wayward children with good things
while the faithful ones were forgotten?
Why was it that most of the
success stories or divine providence
stories she heard was
about a prostitute finding favour,
or a thief having an encounter with
the mercy of God
All around her, it seemed the ones
who had decided to walk the straight
and the narrow end up losing out to
She wished she could become prodigal
Perhaps then, God would remember her
But she couldn't!
At the age of thirty -three she had
grown resistant to most of the fun
that ought to be had
When her mates were clubbing in
their early twenties, she was a
fervent fellowship sister
She stayed on the narrow lane, never
deviating to the right or to the left
While her mates were testing out
relationship waters, getting their
hearts broken and jumping from
boys to boys like monkeys at a mango
She maintained her focus, kept a straight
After she graduated, she had to pray for
three years before she got a job!
Her faith and adherence to the things
of God did not give her any special
Yet she held on!
She felt they were just light
She felt they were part of her
trials of faith
She consoled herself that God was
keeping an account of her ability
to endure and if she fainted not the
reward will suddenly show up!
The reward never came
She struggled at her place of work
Nobody would walk the straight and the narrow
Everybody was corrupt
She was made the chief accountant of the
organization where she worked for one
The manager realised that her religious
disposition would help him save money
She thought this was an advantage at the
beginning, but it was not
The man was just using her to cover for his
Most of the staff members blamed her
when they didn't get paid their
salaries on time due to the man's
She blocked all their other avenues of
making money at the expense of the company
As a result, they resented her
But she was standing for righteousness
She was being a good Christian!
Of course, they called her names
It was nothing new!
Jesus was called much more by sinners
What made it worse was the fact that the
owner of the business did a lot of sinful
things that made her skin crawl but she
couldn't summon the courage to confront him
because she was scared of losing her job
But the other staff members wouldn't dare
do the same because they were afraid of her
It felt to her as if she was a very partial
judge of sinful behaviour
Those she had authority over wouldn't dare
sin in her presence
She hated sin and would punish iniquity with
the most severe whip
Of course, the other staff members loathed her
Nobody wanted to be friends with her
They kept her at a distance and gave
her lots of nicknames
The one that unnerved her the most
was "Owiwi" (The owl)
She guessed they called her this name
because she was always walking around
making sure everything was in order
Some other staff members called her
When she introduced the "suspension
without pay punishment" they started
calling her "The Witch!"
She suffered from persecution
If at any time God ought to arise and
defend her it ought to have been then!
She was standing for righteousness and
holiness making sure iniquity was
punished so that the punishment will be
a deterrent for would-be sinners
just like the Bible said
And yet, the tag "Miss Witch" stuck!
They called her the name behind her
back at the
beginning but as time went on, they
did so to her face!
Whenever they had a programme in the
she would invite many of the fellow
"They need to hear the word of God.
they don't know the dangers of hell
They have never seen hellfire before!
She had seen hell four times, even
been there in a vision once
This was why she was doing everything
she was doing
She wanted to make heaven
What profit would be in this world
if she didn't make heaven?
She had denied herself all the earthly
she had been overlooked, vilified
She had never had a day's relationship
She has kept herself Holy, undefiled and
unsullied for the sake of Christ
Heaven is the focus of her race
But heaven seemed to be uncooperative
Though the Bible said a believer
should not be envious of the wicked
when they seemed to prosper
But God seemed to be less interested
in actually rewarding evil with
evil and good with good!
Many of her classmates who were notorious
for their sexcapades in school had
settled down with their own husbands
Some of them are happily married
Some of them, despite all the abortions
they had while in school, conceived and
became parents with ease
If only she was God!
She would make all the sinners barren,
jobless, hopeless and joyless
That way they would repent quickly
Isn't that how the system was supposed
Reward the evil with evil and the good
God didn't cooperate with believers
He allowed the wicked to prosper
He allowed the flirts to get married
he allowed the wayward ones to have all the
satisfaction and pleasures of this world
God blessed the ungodly
Sometimes at the expense of the godly
In her office, there was a girl who was
sleeping with her boss
The girl was a fresh graduate and she
had been trying to win her soul
Her boss corrupted the girl and got
When she saw the girl crying one
morning in the office and
found out the girl was pregnant
She was secretly happy!
Evil had to be punished
Consequences had to show up!
But when her boss arrived at the
He discussed with the girl and
the girl's face lit up
He didn't just promise to marry
He actually married her and she
delivered a baby boy without any
Then the lady became born again
Just like many others
The lady cheated the system and
God accepted her as a child
Both of them would be in the same
Both of them would have mansions
And she would be the holy one
while the lady, the slut, would
also share the same inheritance
Where was the fairness in that?
It was very galling and unnerving
The partiality of God
Favour ain't fair, right?
She didn't know why it got to her
It had been eating away at her on
for many months
One day it was just too much
Life wasn't worth living
Everybody is making something of
She was lonely, depressed and
She just didn't see the need to go
What would be the point?
There are so many things she desired
So many things she longed to have
She had nothing!
She gave everything up for the
sake of the gospel
And the gospel continued to take
more and more from her until she
felt hollow and empty!
She couldn't go into the world
She just wanted to die and be done
That was when she reached out to the
Brother in Jeans and T-shirt
She told him she was depressed
She hated her life and wanted to
The joy of her salvation had been
She was hopeless, joyless and lifeless
She wrote a long essay about the
unfairness of God
She poured out her heart
She didn't even know he would read
But he did!
He gave her a call and they had
He was just laughing at her
It was irritating
Whenever she said anything she
God, he would laugh and laugh
It made her feel he wasn't taking
What sort of "Pastor" laughs at
of the person he was counselling
She would have left but she
She felt she would just endure
session and go home to end it all
It wasn't as if she didn't reach
out when she needed help
When she was done talking, he looked
at her and said
"You have believed in the wrong gospel"
The gospel of works and performance
You think you can impress God with
good behaviour in the flesh
You have forsaken the gospel of
You have evolved another formula
for salvation based on your own
"right standing" with God!
Whenever you see a believer who
did not rejoice at the salvation and
benevolence of God to all his children,
The gospel of works or performance
is the cause!
You want to merit the goodness of God
by your own filthy rag type of holiness
You want to earn the joy of the holiness
by your own righteousness
You want to see sinners cast into the
fires of hell so as to prove to them
that you were right and they were wrong!
You think in a carnal way and expect God
to act in a carnal way
He showed her the scripture
He told her she was self-righteous
He told her she was like the elder
brother of the prodigal son
She felt entitled to all and felt
the misery was a just recompense
of reward for the "sinners"
She hated him
He was trying to "force-feed" her the
that they all preach which had turned
the world upside down
She had a sure defence against his
"Shall we continue in sin and say
that grace should abound?"
He took her to the book of acts, he
told her to read
aloud "Acts 15" and explain what she
read to him
he took her to Acts 7, 8, 9 and 10
He took her to the book of Romans
He told her to go home and study the
Bible for herself
He said "You were invited to a banquet,
the table had been set and all the
provisions made for your
convenience but you felt you have
to earn your seat despite being invited
to eat and drink for free!"
That was the turning point!
It took her a month of reading
the Bible, praying and crying
She cried because she never saw
like that ever before
She was always angry, always bitter,
She felt it was because she was
surrounded by sin and sinners
But she was suddenly relieved
The heaviness lifted
She also stopped dreaming about hell
She started seeing heavenly things
Speaking heavenly language
Praying in the spirit with joy
She experienced the fullness of joy
in the presence of God
She saw things in bright colours
When she resumed work, she was
She laughed and mingled and
It was as if she had a complete
change of life!
Her friends in church frowned at it
She was unnecessarily uppity and
walking with springs in her step
She had tasted of the fountain of
Shallow waters had been turned into
rivers of living water in her belly
She changed her church
All she wanted was a church where
she could listen to the right message
without the yeast of the religious
Grace was absolutely liberating!
She went for an interview for a
Her interviewer asked her a lot of
At the end of the day, they exchanged
He started calling her socially
She would have blocked his phone number
Seen him as a predator who wanted to use
the job to take advantage of her
But she didn't!
She had seen the quality of his
He treated her with respect
He proposed to her after two months
He wanted to marry her
She was shocked!
He was two years younger than him
She would have red-flagged it
But her happy heart was singing "Yes"
She said yes!
They got married in December 2017
She got a better job with another firm two months
PS: The marriage was blessed with a set
of twins in December 2018
She still marvelled at the coincidence
All she changed was her gospel
She switched from "performer" to "inheritor"
The fountain of bitterness was demolished
Depression was crushed
She saw with the lens of grace rather
than the lens of sin
People became attracted to her too
No more name-calling and vilification
When people have issues, they come to her
Grace made her comely and she became
a more effective witness of the
gospel to others!
Seeing the story of many people
unfold under the wing of grace is
I have seen with my own eyes
hewn together by the thread of
grace and restored effortlessly
Grace is not a license to sin
How can it be?
Nobody who drinks of the waters
of grace remains the same
You cannot even think of sin!
Those who claim to walk in grace
and used it
as a license to sin are holding
the truth in unrighteousness
They have a theory of grace without
the spirit of Grace
Theories are carnal, the spirit