Shattered

She started sleeping with her choir director almost a year after she joined the choir

She didn’t plan it

She didn’t want to

She couldn’t even believe she was doing it

But she was

It just happened!

He took special interest in her

She naturally liked the affection

He was jovial, caring, attentive and very religious

She assumed soon after meeting him that he was already an angel and someone to learn from

She drew close to him

She didn’t know how her emotions got entangled in the mess

What she could say categorically was that she didn’t lust after him in her heart until he stole a kiss one day while sitting with her after the choir practice

They sat together discussing faith related matters

The kiss came out of nowhere

He planted it so squarely, she tasted him long after they had parted

The kiss was her undoing

She kept wondering whether she ought to have kissed him back

He was a bachelor, heavily gifted and talented

She knew all the ladies were pinning for him

She started dreaming of being the one to bell the cat

She was a child of God

She became born again as a teenager and had never ventured into any relationship before

The kiss did a huge number on her

She kept tasting him many days after

Before their next choir practice she was eager to taste his lips again

Just to be sure he didn’t make a mistake the first time

She also wanted to kiss him back and see how it would taste like

What harm can a kiss do?

His lips on hers was one of the most magical moment of her existence

He must be interested in a relationship with her

Why not?

She was single, a graduate with a good job and a very great prospect

He would be quite a catch and she wouldn’t mind being his wife

If she needed to encourage him to air his intentions, she intended by all means to do so

After their next choir practice he walked her home

She asked him if he would like to come into her flat

He said no

She turned around in disappointment

He pulled her back and kissed her squarely on the lips

This time, she took the bait with joy

She kissed him back

They exploited and tested every inch of each other’s mouth

Oh God!

It felt so good!

He wanted to leave

She held his hands and opened her door

They came into his flat and she turned to face him

She held his waist and looked into his eyes

He bent down and kissed her again!

It was sooooooo goooooood!

His hands held her waist at first but somehow they moved to the small of her back and she felt herself moving

No! Floting on a cloud they made together

Wow!

He was as into it as she was!

They got to her couch, he lowered her down

His lips explored her neck, her chin, her chest

She panicked for a few seconds when his hands held her breasts’

What happened next can only be explained by angels!

She didn’t know how but her blouse and bra betrayed her!

They ran away without giving her any prior warning!

Her left nipple was in his mouth while the right one was teased by her thumb

At that point she was still in charge

Her brains were at full alert but then he started kissing her navel

Her thighs, he moved upwards

Samson came into the room and carried away the gates of Gaza!

Just like that

He put her hands on his Tinkerbell

The bell started ringing

Cosmic dust flowed everywhere

She opened the floodgates wider

His mouth started showing her the fruit of his lips

It was an earthquake

By the time he placed his Tinkerbell in the Bermuda triangle

She was begging for it!

He did everything she dreamt of

She did everything he dreamt of

• Day One

It became the norm

Every Saturday at first and later every other day

She would call him sometimes

He would call her sometimes

It felt so natural

It felt so real

She was happy in a sinful way

He was very careful not to expose her to any disease or pregnancy!

Knowing he belonged to her was also a form of power

She got preferential treatment from him by default during the choir practice

Sometimes she would catch his eye during the choir practice and he would wink exclusively at her

Such moments kept her warm at night

Sometimes they spent the night together

Those were days of rare experiences

He was a man hell bent of taking every juice she had to offer and she was up to the task

• Year one

She expected things to progress naturally

They were in love and should be walking towards exclusivity

Naturally he should propose!

He didn’t!

She noticed that he had an eye for other ladies too in the choir

What!

She overheard a lady talk about him in a particular manner

She knew instinctively that the lady had been intimate with him

She couldn’t believe herself!

How could she have been so stupid?

She broke it off after!

But he had her number

He knew she was only hurting in her head

Her body belonged to him

The more she said no, the more he found his way into her pants

It was as if he had cut her locks of hair as Delilah did to Samson

She would shake her body expecting divine strength

All she would get was rhapsodic moaning and panting

She hated herself for it

Guilt threw a web over her in no time, she became a wreck!

*Year two

The more she resented herself for giving in to him

The more the cloud lifted

She knew for sure she was just one of his go to places for sex

From a virgin to a sex tool

Her evolution was spiralling backwards

She had tasted the forbidden fruit and her body craved for more

But her body could only drive her for so long

Eventually she told herself the truth

He was just using her to feed his ego and his vanity

He had no intention of marrying her

He got free sex

Sometimes free money

Sometimes free food

Not only from her but from other ladies in the choir

Of course all the ladies would not feel the same way

For her, he was a wicked man who ought to be thrown out of the church!

Though she was equally to blame for being a willing accomplice

but she was not sleeping with everybody!

How could a Christian be comfortable taking advantage of ladies that way?

In the Church of God!

How come he didn’t feel any remorse?

How come he didn’t feel sorry?

How perverse could he be that his conscience didn’t even feel a dent?

He was a serial predator

She fell for his antics

She felt used and dirty

Eventually she summoned courage and cut it off

He tried to beg and plead

She was resolute

He squared his shoulder, like a cobra and slithered away

She was hurt so badly!

Her emotions were screaming

Her intellect was screaming

Her spirit was screaming

Her body was screaming

Why couldn’t he just do right by her?

It was the worst season of her life

She just couldn’t bear seeing him strutting about like a peacock!

The mere sight of him acting all normal was killing her

Why wasn’t he as broken as she was?

Why wasn’t he as repentant?

How come he could act as if everything was fine?

How?

She couldn’t get any answer

Her heart was broken but who could she tell?

It hurt so much more that she couldn’t talk to anybody!

She bottled it and bore it all alone!

Eventually she reached out to the Holy Spirit

“Please help me, she cried, forgive me”

The Holy Spirit stepped in and helped her sort her life out

She mourned him for only three weeks

One morning she discovered that the fog had lifted

She was able to function without thinking of him

She left the choir after she was sure she had healed

She joined the drama team

Within a year she was engaged to one of the brothers in the choir department

He loved her so much

She didn’t feel she deserved his love

She told him about her affair with the choir master

He said it was in the past’

They got married

The choir master left their church for a bigger church

Within a month he was caught philandering with some members of the choir of the bigger church

He had become a wolf, preying upon the sheep of His pasture with joy

The pastor tried to correct and discipline him

He left the church in anger

He died on his way to another state to take up another job few days later

Nobody knew if he was born again before he died or not!

Ps: If you are leading a team in your church or you are a member of a team in your church and you are sleeping with the members of your team (Male or female), I beseech you by the mercies of God to desist from such NOW! in the name of Jesus

Remember who you are dealing with here!

God may be slow to anger and plenteous in mercy

Don’t toy with the flock of his pasture

If he would leave the ninety-nine and come looking for the one that was lost, don’t ever let it be that He would find that one grinding you!

If he killed the Lion and the bear that took one of the Lamb of His pasture and rescued the Lamb intact, what do you think He would do to you!

Remember that whosoever stumbled upon this stone shall be broken to pieces and whosoever the stone shall fall upon shall be grounded to powder!

Remember Ananias and Saphirra? 

Dont assume the Holy Spirit does not weed out evil from the church!

If you are evil, even though you may claim to be a child of God all you want! He will weed you out unless you repent!