Lesi's Serenade

My family is pretty close-knit 
and overall we have more men 
than women. I grew up around guys; 
proper guy men. I would see 
the effort they would put into 
going after women. They would listen 
to backstreet boys,Celine Dion,Nsync 
and the likes, before putting pen 
to paper. I was usually the 
one to deliver the letters. 
I was always with them in the 
war room while they schemed on 
how to win the next conquest. I saw 
the ladies see pepper. They would 
lure them with words and when 
they were satisfied, they would break 
them down again with words.

Words became meaningless to me 
because all I saw was how words 
were used as a tool for manipulation 
and selfish gains. I also thought 
girls were generally stupid and 
I think somewhere in my head, I hated 
that I was female. I considered 
vulnerability as a weakness.

It affected me greatly because 
I didn't know what to do with 
my emotions so I would ignore them. 
I didn't know how to express my 
emotions. I deliberately built walls 
so no one could make it close 
enough to hurt me.

Nobody can imagine what @inalemma used 
his eyes to see when we started dating. 
I became concerned for him 
when he kept coming back over 
and over again in spite of how 
I treated him. Always saying, 
'I have chosen you and I am going to 
love you whether you like it or not'.

He was determined to treat me 
differently and was persistent with 
his intentions too. He began to read 
me the stories from @GbengaWemimo 
at night as my bedtime stories. 
It was enough for a while, then 
I asked him to point me to the 
source of the stories.

I found the website and devoured 
the stories. I have learnt a lot and 
grown too. Most importantly, the 
Holy Spirit has worked on my heart 
and I am better for it. 
Our relationship is better for it.

Happy Birthday my Superman! 
Thank you for being persistent in 
showing me that you love me 
whether I like it or not. 
The world isn't ready 
for the things God will do 
through you in this new year.