Metanoyo

Good evening Uncle Gbenga.

Metanoyo

I'm sorry to disturb you. 
I know you might be busy right now. 
I have a confession to make and I need 
the help of the holy spirit to be redeemed.
I'm a 23 years old graduate. 
I finished service last year and 
I'm yet to get a job. 
Recently an old friend came home from 
his school, a poly and from the look of 
things, he was doing better materially.
He could afford the things I couldn't. 
Well maybe because I'm yet to get a job 
and so I look like a church rat.
He sold me the idea of doing yahoo
(internet fraudster). 
He told me testimonies of how much he 
has made even though he's just a student. 
He told me there's no job out there and 
that I may die a pauper.
Somehow, maybe because I was spiritually 
weak and poverty made me vulnerable. 
I agreed.
He taught some things. 
I got to work. 
The night I used for vigils became night 
for bombing the internet and seeking 
European victims to scavenge and rip off 
their money. 
All this started 2 weeks ago.
Last week, he said I would need to do 
some rituals to make the job faster and 
so the white will be under spell to give 
me money. 
He told me the stage of my first ritual 
will involve me bathing some concoction 
and then the next one was eating meat 
and Snell from a black pot. 
Uncle Gbenga, truth be told, I did it out 
of desperation. 
I'm yet to cash any money though but 
my mum's sermon of patience has moved 
me to confess. 
This is not me.
Naturally, I would have waited on the lord.
I hope God will forgive me and take me 
back.
I want to redeem myself from the rituals.
I need spiritual intervention.
What do I do sir.
I'll wait on God.
Please lead me back to the holy spirit.
I would have loved to come see you but 
I'm too broke to even afford transport sir.
I don't want to sell my soul to the devil for 
wealth.
I'm ashamed if myself.
You can publish this but keep me
anonymous sir.

DIGGING IN

Waiting for Godot https://gbengawemimo.com/post/waiting-for-godot

Good morning sir.
I read the the "Waiting for Godot" story 
and just read the comments on the 
Telegram family group.
I want to plead with the Husband 
not to leave nor let her leave. 
As I was reading the story, it was 
like you were writing about my mom. 
I can give uncountable instances. 
Even 20years into her marriage my mum 
was telling me she wanted to divorce my 
Father and they are both Pastors.
Sir I can give a lot of instances, and I 
can attest to the fact that the negativity 
is too much to bear.
No matter how good a thing or person is, 
my mom is really good at seeing the worst. 
If I try to make her see the good, she 
will say she knows I will not support her.
When I lost my dad January last year
it became worse.
 As the first born it was tough.
She bad-mouthed almost everybody. 
Only those who took her side no matter 
how wrong she was that she let slide. 
Times without number I have wanted 
to leave the house.
What makes it even more painful is how 
she uses spirituality to back up her 
negativity. 
She would say the Holyspirit dropped it 
in her heart.
Please her husband should not give up yet
 but run to the Holyspirit for help and 
more wisdom. 
I want to share a little of what I noticed 
and how I've been able to cope.
I noticed that want she/they really want is 
affirmation but they looking for it in the 
wrong places.
I take confessions twice everyday, 
I can send it.
I pray for her and speak to her emotions. 
I pray that God will heal her of every hurt 
she might be holding on to. I pray that 
I love her and understand her. 
I pray and declare she sees good in all 
things. 
I pray and declare that she is content 
and satisfied.
Another thing I did/I'm doing is that 
whenever she talks, I listen. 
And I don't try to correct her immediately. 
I let her know I understand what she is 
saying, and that what she is saying maybe 
true. 
But inside me, I know it's not the truth. 
The issue is her perspective. 
So I just acknowledge that that's a 
perspective.
I also started reading a book "How to win 
friends and influence people by Dale Carnegie" 
and I apply what I learn drawing strength 
from God.
I don't always get it all the time, sometimes 
I slip, sometimes I cry but I'm seeing 
improvement.

Thank you sir.