Unease

Waiting on the Lord for a child was one 
of the most dreaded ordeals a woman 
who desired with all her heart to be a 
mother faces. 
The feeling cannot be described by anyone 
who didn't have to wait for so long after 
getting married to have a child 
There was something about the wait
the anticipation and then the disappointment 
that brought a sinking feeling to her heart 
every month 
Her husband didn't take it serious at first, 
he was a happy go lucky kinda guy who 
believed she was anxious for nothing! 
But she could sense right from their 
honeymoon days that things were not right 
somewhere 
It was a feeling she couldn't quite shake 
and it came upon her right from the moment 
they showered and made love for the first 
time after their wedding 
Her mood suddenly dragged downwards and 
she felt or knew that between them there shall 
be no children 
She tried so hard to shake the thought away 
As he came into her and started digging 
deep into her core the thought stayed with 
her and distracted her but he didn't suspect 
a thing 
When he was done and she was fast asleep 
in his arms, she began to rebuke the 
darkness that covered her like a fog 
It was as if an invisible net was cast all over 
her, everything was just off and things stayed 
like that throughout their honeymoon period 
She did her duty as a wife but she was not 
herself After the honeymoon, she went to 
the hospital to find a solution to
the predicament 
It was as if she was drowning slowly 
The doctors did all the tests and pronounced 
her fit 
When she insisted something was wrong, 
she was referred to a psychiatrist 
The psychiatrist spent six months with her 
Things got better for a few days ironically,
 her husband was out of town during those 
days 
She noticed that she was always relieved 
of the discomfort whenever she was on 
her own but whenever her husband was 
around there was tension, a sudden unease 
It gets worse whenever she knew beforehand 
that they would make love or even entertained
the thought in her head, the darkness would 
just descend 
Apart from this feeling, the marriage was a 
good man 
Her husband was into construction and got 
a huge contract two months after the wedding 
She was also given an undeserved promotion 
at her place of work after the wedding
Her mother told her the problem was 
psychological, everybody told her she would 
eventually settle down into her own nest, but 
she didn't 
She met her husband in a very odd way 
She accompanied her best friend to visit her 
best friend's boyfriend 
When they got there, her best friend
and they guy disappeared into the room to 
"discuss" some important things 
She was left in the sitting room 
It was her first time in such a situation 
She found it very awkward 
She knew what her friend was doing in the room 
(She was brought along to discourage it from 
happening)
Her first instinct was to leave but she felt she
 needed to wait and ensure her best friend 
returned to her parent's house before telling 
her off 
Suddenly this guy appeared out of nowhere 
He came to keep her company 
His presence made her uncomfortable at first 
but he was a perfect gentleman 
By the time her best  friend eventually surfaced, 
she was lost in a world of laughter and deep 
conversation 
That was how it all began 
Within six weeks, they were merging dreams 
and building castles 
The speed of his wind swept her off her feet 
so fast that she couldn't
carry her best friend along on time 
By the time she told her friend, he had proposed 
and she had accepted the proposal 
Her friend took it badly, claiming she should 
have sought her own husband far far away 
To make matters worse, her friend's boyfriend 
broke up with him not long after. 
Her friend severed ties with her after the 
breakup 
Her friend did it very subtly but somehow they 
just stopped being friends! 
Throughout her courtship with her man, they 
were great friends 
They had very strong chemistry and were very 
compatible 
She didn't know how, but everything turned to dust 
She had a good man but she couldn't enjoy him 
She became a liability in her marriage 
She moved from hospital to hospital and was 
referred from one specialist to another 
The problem persisted 
One year, two years...Five years 
Life was hell for her
Then she went to South Africa for a conference 
The conference was an eye-opener 
She was herself again 
It was as if the net was removed and she 
was free again 
She felt light in her spirit and experienced 
joy in her soul 
Her mind was alive 
She was herself again 
She was free and happy
A day to the end of the conference, 
the gloom returned 
That was the day she decided she was 
better off without her husband 
She was dying in bits being yoked to him 
She didn't know why and she couldn't find 
any other solution than to leave him 
It was the only way she knew she
would be free! She was only 33 years old 
and still had the whole of her life ahead 
of her 
She knew the only way out of the problem 
was to leave him 
The thought of going back to him sent 
shivers down her spine 
She cried all night 
Why, why couldn't she cope with such a 
wonderful man?
She cried because some people complained 
of being married to an abuser and still 
stayed married 
Other people complained of being married 
to a cheat and they stayed married 
Her husband was the best of all men 
Understanding, supportive, caring, 
loving, tender, loving and yet...
When she got to the airport, she took a 
taxi to a hotel 
She sent her husband a message that 
she missed the flight back home 
She needed some more time to arrange 
her thoughts 
The next day, she waited until her husband 
had left dor work 
She took a vehicle home and packed all her
belongings! 
She didn't know what to say to her husband 
She knew he wouldn't let her go 
There was something wrong with them as 
a couple 
She couldn't waste her time with him again 
Hard decisions had to be made 
She needed to eschew sentiment and call 
it quits 
It was the right move
After packing all her things, she left him a note 
She thanked him for the past five years 
She tried as much as possible to explain what 
she had been dealing with since they got 
married 
She was always better at writing than speaking 
She made a good case and begged him to let 
her go
She also prayed for him 
That God would give him his own wife 
She told him she wrote the letter with a heavy 
heart, knowing he might never unbderstand 
and might misunderstand her intentions 
She said she wished there was a way they 
could be together but sadly, there was none!
When he returned home from work she 
saw the letter 
She had packed her clothes and left every 
other thing behind 
They had built their home together and she 
had jumped ship 
He called her several times 
Drove to her parents house and even to see 
some of her siblings 
He said he just wanted to know if she was okay 
They didn't see each other until three months 
later 
She was the one that called him 
She told him the Brother in Jeans and T-shirt 
would like to meet with him 
She asked if they can meet at the office of 
the Brother in Jeans and T-shirt on a 
Saturday morning 
He didn't know what to think
That Saturday he got to the office of the 
brother in jeans and T-shirt by 9 am
He sat in the car with the engine running 
and the air condition on
He wanted to see where and what 
goes on there
He noticed a church building
Then he noticed the signboard and banners 
of the church's programmes
He relaxed
His wife arrived by 10 AM
She parked and walked into the compound
He switched off his car's ignition and followed
slowly behind her
They met the Brother in Jeans and T-shirt in
the conference room
The Brother in Jeans and T-shirt asked them to
sit down
He said "Two weeks ago, I came across a lady
She was 34 years old and she knew the two
of you very well
She came for our night vigil the previous Friday
At that vigil she was touched by the Holy Spirit
and she gave her life to Jesus
She showed up at the parish where i worship
the following Sunday
She said she had something to say
She said she felt your relationship and marriage 
led to the termination of her own relationship 
with the love of her life
She said she reported the matter to her mother
and together they decided to teach you both
a lesson
They did a charm which they activated on your
wedding night
The charm was to ensure the marriage never
settled as the sea does not settle
She said she did it to teach the two of you a
lesson
Thank God for Jesus, she has given her life
to Christ and felt she needed to tell me the
story
She asked if it would be wise for her to come
and see you personally
I told her it would be better if we all met here
That was why I called this meeting
First I will like to know if you guys sincerely
have had a difficult marriage as a result of 
her actions?
She spoke first
She spoke for two hours and eight minutes
She cried a lot too
He also spoke for about thirty minutes too
The Brother in Jeans and T-shirt asked
her if she was still feeling unsettled in her
husband's presence
She nodded
He told the two of them to stand up and hold
each other's hands
He laid his hands on their shoulders
The right hand on the husband's shoulder
and the left on the wife's shoulder
He led them to Christ and they got filled
with the Holy Spirit
Then he blessed them and went back
to his seat
They held hands and cried
The tension drained out of her system by 
the power of the Holy Spirit 
She released her husband's hands and
hugged him tight
Then they began to kiss
The Brother in Jeans and T-shirt had to
cough to get them to adjust
He knew they were feeling like brand
new lovers
Then he told them to sit down and
asked one of the security men on duty to
bring the lady waiting in his office
into the conference room
A few minutes later the lady arrived
The lady in question was her "best friend"
She fell on her knees as soon as she
saw them
They both got up and approached
her with warmth
They were all in tears
It was such a lovely sight
There was neither condemnation nor
damnation
Only love!

PS: Sister Onotota delivered a set of
Twins earlier today in Ajah, Lagos State
The babies were delivered 11 months
after she reconciled with her husband
Her best friend got married in 2019
December
She is presently in Ondo State with
her husband
She is also expecting her first baby
The relationship between them is
warm and cordial
This event happened in Lagos, 2019.

GSW's Note: If enchantments and
divinations will not work against you,
you must be filled with the Holy Spirit
He is our defense against the wiles
of the evil one
He is our immunity and our shield!
Pray in the Spirit always
Pray in Understanding
Keep your eyes on God
Win by the power of the Holy Spirit
If you are married and you sense
something is wrong
Don't wait and hope it will pass
Brother, sister please Pray!
Prayer shouldn't be your last
resort!
It should be your only resort