Reckless Love

September 22, 2013. 
That was the day I met my Husband. 
I had been a stripper in Tampa, Miami 
and Vegas for the past 6 years and me 
and my girls were at the local 
After Hours club where Justin and his 
boys were selling molly, x, weed, and 
cocaine. 
Justin and I did all 4. 
And from that night we became inseparable. 
We were the IT couple and living a 
crazy life. 
Money. 
Drugs. 
Pimps. 
Strippers. 
Every night. 
That's all we knew.
A lot of you that "know" me are probably 
saying to yourself "But wasnt she a 
Pastor's daughter growing up? 
At church every Wednesday, Thursday, 
and Sundays? 
Pastor Kid retreats. And youth camps? 
Yea. That was me. 
I could speak in tongues too. 
Been seeing things in the Spirit since I 
was a little girl and could finish any 
scripture you started. 
I had witnessed "religion" my whole life 
(not all bad) but honestly the majority 
i wanted no part in what it had to offer. 
All Satan ever replayed for me was a 
memory. 
Back in 2006. 
Being pregnant at 18, and after burning all 
my bridges, I was sleeping on the floor at 
Salvation army. (Thank God for SOLVE Homes) 
I felt worthless. 
I never wanted to feel like that again, 
so i determined in my mind not to feel 
anything at all. 
And get money.
After I had met J, as I continued dancing, 
the holy spirit would start talking to me. 
I would run to the bathroom and do a line 
in the dressing room and yell, " 
YOU STILL WANNA TALK?! 
Why dont you just leave me alone?!" 
He never did. Talk about His 
Reckless Love? 
I started having visions of Satan in 
the crowd while I was on stage 
clapping for me. (he ain't clappin now!)
A few months later, Justin goes to court 
and is supposed to be sentenced to 
15 YEARS in prison. 
But God showed up in the court room 
and instead he gets put on house 
arrest for a year following 3 years of 
a 10 o'clock curfew.  
As we're walking out the courtroom, 
he says, "You're not dancing no more!" 
I got Isaiah back from my Mom, who had 
been with her for that 5 month span.
And we started to try the family thing.
May 29, 2015 (A year later)
Was the day we walked into Truth Outreach 
Global Ministries and I really experienced 
God like never before and have been 
chasing after Him ever since. 
Did we stop smoking weed right away? 
Of course not. 
Did we never sin again? 
What do you think? But we never stopped 
going to church. 
The more we fell in love with Him, the 
less we wanted to hurt Him and now 
we are drug free. 
His heartbeat became our own. 
People would say "Well you cant turn 
a hoe into a housewife!" But i am living 
proof that God can turn you into what 
you were CREATED to be in the first 
place! 
I went from watching my husband 
chase money and women, and his 
brothers' approval to chasing God 
and waking up in the middle of the 
night to Him on the bedroom floor 
literally crying out "NOT MY WILL 
BUT YOURS GOD!"
I'll never know why He chased us. 
The song "Reckless Love" touches 
my SOUL. 
A Love so Reckless that in the middle 
of a strip club He thought about me?! 
He chased me?!  
My husband has 4 felonies, absolutely 
no church background and He wants 
him to preach the gospel? 
To go back into the very trap 
houses and clubs we hung out in 
and deliver His people?!
All i know is God is REAL. 
He will never fit in this box that 
we subconsciously, religiously try to 
contain Him in. 
He saved my life. 
He saved Justin's life. 
How could we not follow Him?! 
It's not protocol, it's not a chore, 
but an honor. 
He took filthy rags and made us whole. 
He calls me....me...beautiful  
He's such a Good Good Father and 
He is the reason why I can even sit 
here today and tell my testimony. 
Unashamed. 

Culled from Kris-Lynn Williams
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